January 14, 2011 Day Ninteen

I don't know if you know but mama walks over to see me every morning.  It is not a long walk but to her it feels like I am miles away.  But while she is walking she prayes everyday for me to be healthier then the day before.  Also every day as she walks she sees all sorts of people, young, old healthy sick and so forth.  Well today she was noticing just how many different people God has made and wondering their stories, are they there because they are sick or visiting some one special like she is?  Can they tell what she is there for?  Do they wonder what her story is?  But then she realized that it does not really matter  if they know her story, God knows her story and my story and that should be all the comfort she needs, it does not matter how many people know, or if she shouts it from the roof top, the only person that needs to know has known before I was conceived.  And that gave her heart a lot of peace and she has needed that for a while now!

Today I had my first time wearing clothes!  Miss Stephanie found me an outfit that was the smallest they had at that time.  Mamma laughed and laughed when she first saw me.  So Miss Sarah another great nurse found a smaller outfit that fit me better, and even better it said "daddy Loves me" and I know it is true :)!

Also today I was having a rough time with my Oxygen level in my blood.  Mommy sat and watched nervously as the numbers went up and down and the alarms kept sounding.  She cried alot, because she was very scared and stills feels guilty for not being able to help me.  They finally turned the level of force back up and I did a lot better.  I think I am not ready to do it on my own yet.  Do they forget I am just a little peanut? 

Our pretty peanut!